When All Seems Bleak…

American robin

Snowfall. A world in white. Looks just like winter—but somehow it FEELS like spring. The robins agree: they are back, singing their hearts out in the snow.

Just as in spring the weather will sometimes revert to winter conditions, sometimes situations in life appear to be worse than they are. (This often happens during times of transition when you are making a shift towards something better.) The wise animal inside you knows the truth about where you are in your journey, and the appropriate actions to take.

Sometimes at times like these it’s better to consult the gut than the mind. What is really happening? Is this really a good time to hunker down and hibernate, or migrate elsewhere? (Maybe it is, maybe not.) Or would it feel better to rustle up some yummy worms, build your nest, or simply open your heart and sing?

Myself, I’m hitting the ski trail today. That white stuff won’t last forever, after all!

Photo credit: Greg Reese

Crushing Guilt

Guilt is an interesting emotion, because it subverts and manipulates Love. If Love is not present, it’s impossible for guilt to take hold.

Sometimes in life we find ourselves in situations where our best interests appear to conflict with another’s. This is a breeding ground for guilt.

For many years I struggled with guilt around eating animal products. I tried just about every meat-free diet under the sun, from lacto-ovo vegetarian to raw vegan. Eventually I would always end up feeling physically, mentally, and/or emotionally imbalanced. It seems that at least for now my particular body needs at least a small amount of meat.

This disturbed me. I wrestled with it for years before I finally thought to ask my guides for their perspective.

“We are all one,” they said. “Nature eats itself in order to grow and expand in consciousness. This is a gift of the animals to you, given out of love at the soul level, for the sake of the All. Accept and receive it with gratitude. Do not allow feelings of guilt to taint your receiving. Guilt does not honor their sacred gift.”

I noticed that the more stress I was under the greater my need for meat. I was given to understand that part of the animals’ gift is to help ground and connect me to Mother Earth so that I can more easily deal with denser energies. I was also told that as I progress spiritually and learn to live in love, my need for animal products will lessen, and this has proven to be the case. I hope at some point to give them up altogether. In the meantime, I do my best to choose ones that are produced as humanely as possible, and give thanks at each and every meal.

Not everyone struggles with this particular issue, but nearly all of us experiences guilt at one time or another.

Guilt binds. It is the enemy of freedom. If you are dealing with guilt, know this:

  • We are here for a reason. We do have needs and it’s important that our real needs be met so we can move towards our higher purpose.
  • Each individual is responsible for determining and honoring their own real needs.
  • Sacrificing our real needs for another in a way that is counter to our purpose is not an act of love and will create karma for both.
  • Guilt does not honor another’s sacrifice for our well being. Gratitude does.*
  • When we wrong others, guilt will not heal the wounding. Forgiveness will.

If you are struggling with feelings of guilt, connect with the other person at the soul level. Express your love and gratitude for them, and ask for forgiveness, both from them and from yourself.  (You can do this at the soul level if the person’s ego is unable to forgive.) Also send yourself a lot of love.

Then, ask your angels to help you clear any feelings of guilt around the situation, and guide you to the best actions to take moving forward. The Hawaiian practice of ho’oponopono can also be hugely helpful.

Much love and many blessings,


*Sometimes we must choose between courses of action that all appear to deny our real needs. In this case the path that honors the highest real need will be the most desirable—which may entail a great deal of sacrifice. Jesus is a great example of this.


Heart’s Center (channeled message from Archangel Haniel)

Joy Healing Heart watercolorIt feels to me like the spirit world speaks more directly to us through images. However most of us require translation. This message came through first as an image. I’ve been asking my angels lately to help me by giving me clear words that I and others can understand. I am grateful to Archangel Haniel for this explanation:

Archangel Haniel on Heart’s Center

Gratitude - Archangel Haniel Joy. Joy in your heart. Spiraling out and from the center.

Take the time. Take the time to center. To come back to your Self.

The longing you have for others, it is a longing for wholeness. Yet wholeness is here from the very beginning, here in your heart. You have never left a state of wholeness. You can come back to it whenever you want, just by coming to stillness.

And in stillness is the joy, the eternal sound like the ringing of a singing bowl, the crystal voices of angels, that song eternal throughout time. It is Joy, oh beautiful one, it is the joyous sound of Love. When you are truly centered here, all is well When you are truly centered here, there is nothing to fear. When you are truly centered here, all is Love.

You are always truly centered here. Only when you choose to experience otherwise will you see differently. But that is a story you tell yourself, a deliberate illusion for the purpose of exploration. A what-if fairy tale. You can play with that version of “reality” as long as you want, but when you get bored of that, when it no longer serves the purpose of your soul, when there is no more to learn from it, you can put it back on the shelf and return to center, return to Love.

For Love is All, and you are Love. And everyone you love is Love, so no matter what it looks like in this crazy projection of a world, we are already united with our lovers, with our family, with the ones who have passed on.

Think of that. Perpetual union. A coming together in ultimate bliss, always and forever. No matter what it would seem from the perspective of the world, remember this.


On Freedom (channeled message from ascended master El Morya)

Freedom. Does your soul crave it? Mine does.

I don’t know of anyone else who considers Humans a spirit animal, but why not? We are of the earth just like any creature.

Every animal has what I think of as its super powers: those qualities and abilities that really set it apart and help it to survive and thrive. For Humanity, I’d say our super powers are these: Cleverness, Creativity, Compassion and Love (when we’re at our best)…and Freedom.

Maybe other animals have free will choice to step out of alignment with divine will, I don’t know. But as far as I know, we’re the only one on this planet to have acted on it.

But that also means we have the free will choice to step back into alignment, and within that, to use our amazing powers of creativity to literally create miracles.

(Don’t believe in miracles? The word “miracle” simply means “something wonderous.” Miracles are just science we don’t understand. What would a cave man have thought of a cell phone?)

The ascended master El Morya has been teaching me stuff about freedom lately. (Or trying to, anyway: I can be a little dense sometimes.) Here is some of the wisdom he relayed to me:

El Morya on Freedom

El MoryaBelieve me when I say, you are free. Ask your soul. Ask it what it wants. It will tell you. Believe it, and believe that as soon as you decide, as soon as you make the choice to allow yourself the freedom your soul desires, the way will be laid open for you, because your soul’s will is aligned with the will of God.

You must be clear on this. To become clear, you must learn to know yourself. And to know yourself, you must be willing to love yourself for who you are. Compassion is necessary. Objectivity is necessary. Love is imperative.

You must look at yourself without judgement and admit the truth of who you are. And release attachment to projected images of your self generated by a frightened and discontented ego. To release the shame, release the guilt, release the sense of obligation.

You must look at yourself as though at a wild animal, a being in its natural state: This is what it is, this is what it needs to survive and thrive, and when it is placed in its right environment it naturally contributes to the health and workings of the All.

But you are more than a wild animal, you are a conscious being with the power to choose and to create your own reality, your own environment, your own destiny.

Will you choose to create a world and an environment that pinches and restricts and worries you? [Channeler’s note: No self-respecting wild animal would choose that!]  That is what you have created in the past, and you are at this moment still experiencing the effects of this decision.

Understand that what you are experiencing now is the energetic manifestation of the state of your mind, your consciousness, in the past…Now you are experiencing a shift in consciousness from several months back. If you choose to maintain the momentum of this shift, you will continue to see improvements in your material existence corresponding to the cleansing and the learning that you have been doing at the spiritual level.

It happens quicker or slower in different areas of your life, depending on how adept you are, how far you have progressed in each area and according to your soul’s purpose as well as accumulated karma in each area. In some areas you are relatively clear, so your prayers and requests are easily granted. In other areas where you have had major accumulations of karma and lessons to learn, you will experience the shift over a longer period of time.   Yet like the breaking of a dam, these can at some point shift very quickly.

It happens in the mind first, then on the material plane: you will experience the shifts in the material to bring you the freedom you desire as long as you remain steady on your spiritual path.

But Clarity demands self-love. Do you not see that you have been withholding Love? You have been denying yourself your gift and pleasure. Do you not see that you need not judge your gifts? That when you truly give of yourself to God, when you entrust us to assist you, that we will not fail you?

You are loved, we love you so very much.You are a child of God and a true creator spirit. Allow yourself to spread your wings, you eagle child…you are bigger than you have ever believed and even now as you are starting to lift yourself out of the cavern in which you have kept yourself locked for so many lifetimes, even now as you just begin to lift your eyes to the sky, you don’t even begin to comprehend the depth of love there is for you and the immense presence that is your soul.

Allow yourself to be. Remember who you are. You are an angelic being of immense wisdom, love, and light. Allow her [your soul] to shine. Allow her to be. Allow her to do.

And if you need help, ask.

Ask for a softening of that which binds you. Ask above all for forgiveness. Forgive your self. You have done nothing wrong. You like all humans have fallen into forgetfulness, forgetting who you are, forgetting you are a divine being, a brilliant and beautiful child of Light. But there is no shame in that circumstance—it is simply the nature of humanity and there is a reason for it.

So forgive yourself. And love yourself. And if you need help, ask for it. We are here.

So what I’m taking from this at the moment is, if you really want to be free, be honest with yourself. Be frankly, nakedly honest about who you are and what you need. Be willing to give yourself the environment you need to thrive. And don’t be ashamed to take it. Because when we have what we really need, that’s when we are free to give the most.

“Skunk saved me!” (True spirit animal story)

skunk spirit animal oracle card A client of mine (I’ll call her Jane) shared this with me this week. I thought it was a cool true spirit animal story, and with her permission I’d like to share it with you, too:

Jane stepped into her local car dealership last Saturday with the intention of just test driving a specific vehicle. 

“But you know how they are,” she wrote me. “They held me captive ‘till I bought a car. 

“I was not happy. It wasn’t the right car. I was so mad at myself. I spent too much, I didn’t feel right about the deal, and I was also sad because I wasted my day off getting suckered into it.

But as I’m tossing and turning in the night and trying to relax, guess who shows up? Skunk. He kind of scampers on to the frame of my mind’s eye out of the right hand corner. Immediately I grabbed my tablet and looked up the meaning of skunk.

‘Back Off!’  is the message I got from it. ‘Stop trying so hard. Relax and let the situation resolve itself.’

“It also said, ‘you don’t have to ‘make a stink.’ You have the confidence to right a wrong with a calm heart.’

“Isn’t that great? It’s sure what I needed to hear. I relaxed and immediately felt myself slip back into alignment.”

Long story short, Jane returned to the dealership the next day and calmly canceled the deal.  “Thanks, Skunk spirit!” she wrote. And, “Thanks for bringing the critters into my life. Their wisdom and companionship is really a help and a comfort.”

When spirit animals show up for you (and they will), pay attention—they really are here to help us out! 🙂